10 months since my last breakup. i still love her, she still likes me, but has a guy as far as i know and it's no use anyway. we haven't talked or had any contact at all for the last 7 months. i'm still down with her friends in my city(she lives three hours away) and with her roommate who is also still a good friend of mine, i still hang out with her and her boyfriend, who also skates. however, it's like there's a conspiracy going on to make sure she and i will not meet, not even by coincidence. for example she skipped the birthday party of a mutual friend of ours because she knew i'd be there. it's super weird. i really have no hopes of coming clean with her again, whatever that means. i don't talk about it with her friends because i'd prefer we could adress each other directly. i guess we will meet by coincidence and it's gonna be awkward as fuck... anyway, i've gotten used to it and now i remain with a pretty cynical view about relationships, though i had 4 of them that lasted a year or more. now when i think of entering a new relationship it all comes down to me wondering how it will end this time.
stay strong, tfuckina.